May 17, 2017

Mom.

It's been 8 years since you've been gone.
It's still like a dream for me.
I'm still wishing you were here.
Surely, there was a time when I terribly wanted you to be by my side.
When I didn't know which way to go, what choice that I should make.
If you were still alive, I'm sure that you'll help me how to choose the good one without pushing me to do what you wanted me to do.
If you were still alive, I promise I would be a better daughter for you, even not a perfect one.
If you were still alive, I would like to take a ton of selfies with you. I realized that we didn't take pictures enough Haha
If you were still alive, I believe that you would be my best friend ever. Mom and daughter squad! Yay ;)
If you were still alive...
I believe everything would be different if you were still here.

Nonetheless, I'm so thankful to you, Mom.
I realized that I should treasure every moment, every second of it.
Tell people around me that I'm so thankful for their presence.
Tell Dad that I love him, as much as possible, still a little bit weird tho, Mom. HAHA
But I want to make sure that I didn't make the same mistakes as I did to you. 
I promise I will be a good daughter, a good sister, and a good friend for people who care about me.
You're continuing to teach me how to be a better me, even when you're gone.

Miss you a little bit too much.
I always will be your little naughty daughter ;)
Love you, Mom. Always and forever 

May 11, 2017

Fear.

These days, the world is getting scarier.