Hi there!
Night without sleep again. Dark circle again.
It has been a few days since I had very very bad sleep cycle and today I can't sleep even a blink T.T
So here I am, trying to write something on my blog while listening to radio. If you wandering what kind of people nowadays that still listening radio, that's me. I have a special reason, because the radio that I'm listening these lately is Korean Radio, which is KBS or MBC. Why? I am trying to work up my Korean language as now I do self-study again with my lazy virus that won't go away easily. But, listening to it everyday made me miss Korea even more. I wanna go back there again. My dream is speaking Korean fluently and if possible to live there. As my post title today, Do I have to achieve it? With my age now, which is 23 years old. I need to snap out of it. Get my self back to reality that I've to face what's happening in front me right now. My Dad won't let me go there for study abroad even just take language course. Then, how can I live there ? Hahaha.. The thing that I still can achieve is speaking Korean fluently, but the problem is I have no one to practice my Korean. I have no one but me. None of friends have interest in Korea, I mean their language. If KPop or KDrama, there's a lot, but none to language.
The only thing that make me hold the fort to keep practising my Korean is I feel my passion here. Actually, since I was child I never have something special that I really like about until my interest in Korean grew up and here I am now. Studying their language.
There is word that I like, "Let that small happiness, whatever it is, become your passion. It's what will keep you alive." I feel that Korean language made me happy while learning it. I never found there's fun in studying but I found it here. I even so happy when I can talk in Korean or knew what people saying in Korean. I feel I can breath. Haha
These days I had worries to figure out what I have to do now to make a life, and earn money. I'm not at the age to have fun again. That's why this thought just hit me, if I should give up on my dream? What should I do?
